freddymumbles

when you start to wonder if thats a mask they're wearing

: freddymumbles; November 25th, 14:56

I just saw something and after everything i heard i must say and i hope you know its you, what the fuck are you up to?!
get your own life, bitch

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: freddymumbles; November 25th, 14:50

Current Mood:: drained

Current Music:: rule the world-take that

Havent came online since like a week ago i think the computer doesnt interest me much anymore sigh nothing seems interesting like before? nothing to look forward to. I think work's becomming much better meeting people i can talk to like yangs is more fun for sure i'm gonna work with sarah on sat! finallyyy.

I think my life's starting to mess up much more right now i shouldnt hurt anyone else cause its simply not fair i understand and dont understand how can someone willingly let herself get hurt even if it means being happy for a little moment the scar's too deep dont you think? I've got to keep myself in control.

Only when you try to experience it with someone else then only do you realise that you still miss the special style and way that you're so familiar with and love. Only then do you realise that things are different and it can never be the same again looking through everything, haha, i just dont know how to express my feelings.

What do you call anger disappointment love hate and confusion all mixed together?

Happy birthday debra ong i miss you love you much much many many<3

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: freddymumbles; November 9th, 19:17

Current Music:: Dear bobbie-yellowcard

What a gloom day there's an overwhelming sadness that filled the air but its probably just for me first time i went for a burial i never want to have to go through anything like that. its just, horrible

When odds are one in a million, be that one

: freddymumbles; November 4th, 22:31

Current Music:: through the trees-low shoulder

Being unable to sleep everynight my bowels acting up again i look like shit the past few weeks my eyes puffy and swollen.

i swear, i swore that once before...
Will we one day look back and say we made a mistake, dear

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: freddymumbles; October 29th, 0:37

i dont think i can

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: freddymumbles; October 28th, 21:17

Current Mood:: exhausted

Current Music:: inevitable-amberlin

went to school till 10 for a farewell party, had the biggest breakfast in ages had no lessons and headed home to sleep thankfully chinese lessons got cancelled and i spent the rest of the day at my mum's club at the gym while she was doing pilates. seems like she's pretty cool my friends want to see how she looks like haha i am glad she gave birth to me we should make it a weekly affair. i'm so exhausted trying to keep myself busy i dont want to/cant keep this up much longer.

today i heard sarah's voice in a week its the most comforting thing i've had in a long long time.
familiarity.

hi debra ong if you see this, i miss you too <3

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: freddymumbles; October 26th, 22:02

Current Mood:: empty

Current Music:: time forgets

results of BEEUSE for promos

chinese tuition flashes the scene of oreo in milk throughout my head..

my heart sank so heavy, i hope you're not injured too bad.

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: freddymumbles; October 25th, 22:49

Current Mood:: lonely

Got a really lousy haircut i look like i have bangs and it isnt a good thing how to go to school like that tomorrow sorry no photos i look like some china girl which is totally bad i want to hide my face for lifeeee, plus chinese A's in a week i cant even read the passages whats new screw it

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: freddymumbles; October 24th, 0:30

So I'll cross my heart
And hope to die
Before I have a chance to lie
To you my dear
Who I wish no harm
But I know in the end this will turn out wrong
See I've been known to fall in love
But sometimes love just is not enough
Before too long
So please forgive me

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: freddymumbles; October 22nd, 22:51

E for chem and chinese(rather unexpected but still demoralizing). U for math which is pretty expected but on the slightly brighter side i won the bet and am getting a free ice cream. Geog and GP to come tmr, these i cant afford to screw. Chinese A's in about a week's time? and PW OP in about two.. this post promos season doesnt seem like one.

Training's starting i can feel myself building up already say hi to tubby once again.
People seem t like seeing me being bitchy, so horrible (yes you TSANG WEI YI) you're bitchy together with me haha

so tell me, where do your priorities lie?

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: freddymumbles; October 20th, 23:58

very soon i cant stand your fucking morals i am breaking down on the inside nobody can see nobody can feel nobody can understand but ultimately i gotta deal with this myself nobody can help me so whats the use

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: freddymumbles; October 14th, 23:31

Current Mood:: indescribable

Current Music:: breaking the habit

(feeling so alone the past few days i wish you wouldnt feel used to being without me)

Hearts Aching.

Thoughts Bursting.

Emotions Overwhelm.

Starting to feel, like i'm human, just like everyone else.

Only the strongest will survive.

Am i strong enough..

its you, and only you.
who can make me and break me

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: freddymumbles; October 11th, 14:41

i miss...

sitting on my roof top with the sun shining, i dont know what my mind is thinking about right now.
i'm starting to feel like, i'm not as super as you thought i was anymore. i'm human

Is there something wrong right now?

Finally promos have ended, one more year till A's? look forward to chinese and PW first before i start thinking too far ahead i really wonder what my results'll turn out to be.

This morning, i was glad to receive your reply after so many days dont think you know this new blog but i hope you do.
Sun's shining but things arent looking as bright

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: freddymumbles; October 3rd, 7:48

This morning i woke up with a tummy :(

just one more week to go!!

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: freddymumbles; September 24th, 23:19

i like ending the day with hearing your voice on the other line

our friday nights

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: freddymumbles; September 17th, 23:52

i had my cyst sucked out finally, pictures but they're not quite clear
its a clear gel! think like 0.5ml came out it looks like pretty much but my wrist is finally flat

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: freddymumbles; September 17th, 0:23

realised that there's still about a month before promo's end, god how am i going to survive going on like this.

i need you more than how i'll be able to tell you