freddymumbles

Gossip's a fact of life

Thu, 24 Dec 2009 10:46:21 GMT

Someone called me a few hours before my trip and told me to watch my back, cause people are watching my every move, judging and scrutinizing. She said to watch my actions and whatever i'm doing right now's not.. me? How do you define whats "you" and whats not. If i cant even define it myself, how or why should other people be saying that is or thats not me. You guys dont even know me well or even well enough to judge and this whole thing is really getting on my nerves and screwing with my brain. So fuck off and i'm so sick of everything, you're not in my position so you cant say anything. though i may not be in the best position or state right now but i'm leading my own life and you can say whatever you want cause its not going to matter much anyway i like whatever i'm doing and so what if they're not the best choices i've made so far in my life i'm taking things as they come and dealing with them when i'm ready so fuck and get your own life. Maybe i will take some advice and go into hiding and disappearing. As much as i want to figure out my thoughts and feelings my new purpose in life, i cant my brain simply drifts away into nothingness and i can only drown myself into music before facing this endless cycle yet again every single time.

I'm tired.
tired of feeling this way
tired of dealing with all this nonsense
tired of dealing with ~~people like~~ this

Gossip's a fact of life. what do you do with facts? You've just got to learn to accept it

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 05:09:04 GMT

cant find the wire for my camera zzzz

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 14:16:59 GMT

Good to be home i need to sleep zz pictures up another time!

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 12:34:00 GMT

freezing my ass offffffffff

when you start to wonder if thats a mask they're wearing

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 06:56:51 GMT

I just saw something and after everything i heard i must say and i hope you know its you, what the fuck are you up to?!
get your own life, bitch

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 06:50:56 GMT

Havent came online since like a week ago i think the computer doesnt interest me much anymore sigh nothing seems interesting like before? nothing to look forward to. I think work's becomming much better meeting people i can talk to like yangs is more fun for sure i'm gonna work with sarah on sat! finallyyy.

I think my life's starting to mess up much more right now i shouldnt hurt anyone else cause its simply not fair i understand and dont understand how can someone willingly let herself get hurt even if it means being happy for a little moment the scar's too deep dont you think? I've got to keep myself in control.

Only when you try to experience it with someone else then only do you realise that you still miss the special style and way that you're so familiar with and love. Only then do you realise that things are different and it can never be the same again looking through everything, haha, i just dont know how to express my feelings.

What do you call anger disappointment love hate and confusion all mixed together?

Happy birthday debra ong i miss you love you much much many many<3

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 11:24:28 GMT

What a gloom day there's an overwhelming sadness that filled the air but its probably just for me first time i went for a burial i never want to have to go through anything like that. its just, horrible

When odds are one in a million, be that one

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 14:50:48 GMT

Being unable to sleep everynight my bowels acting up again i look like shit the past few weeks my eyes puffy and swollen.

i swear, i swore that once before...
Will we one day look back and say we made a mistake, dear

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 16:37:29 GMT

i dont think i can

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 13:28:01 GMT

went to school till 10 for a farewell party, had the biggest breakfast in ages had no lessons and headed home to sleep thankfully chinese lessons got cancelled and i spent the rest of the day at my mum's club at the gym while she was doing pilates. seems like she's pretty cool my friends want to see how she looks like haha i am glad she gave birth to me we should make it a weekly affair. i'm so exhausted trying to keep myself busy i dont want to/cant keep this up much longer.

today i heard sarah's voice in a week its the most comforting thing i've had in a long long time.
familiarity.

hi debra ong if you see this, i miss you too <3

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:23:38 GMT

results of BEEUSE for promos

chinese tuition flashes the scene of oreo in milk throughout my head..

my heart sank so heavy, i hope you're not injured too bad.

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 14:52:05 GMT

Got a really lousy haircut i look like i have bangs and it isnt a good thing how to go to school like that tomorrow sorry no photos i look like some china girl which is totally bad i want to hide my face for lifeeee, plus chinese A's in a week i cant even read the passages whats new screw it

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 16:33:10 GMT

So I'll cross my heart
And hope to die
Before I have a chance to lie
To you my dear
Who I wish no harm
But I know in the end this will turn out wrong
See I've been known to fall in love
But sometimes love just is not enough
Before too long
So please forgive me

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 15:17:06 GMT

E for chem and chinese(rather unexpected but still demoralizing). U for math which is pretty expected but on the slightly brighter side i won the bet and am getting a free ice cream. Geog and GP to come tmr, these i cant afford to screw. Chinese A's in about a week's time? and PW OP in about two.. this post promos season doesnt seem like one.

Training's starting i can feel myself building up already say hi to tubby once again.
People seem t like seeing me being bitchy, so horrible (yes you TSANG WEI YI) you're bitchy together with me haha

so tell me, where do your priorities lie?

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 16:29:38 GMT

very soon i cant stand your fucking morals i am breaking down on the inside nobody can see nobody can feel nobody can understand but ultimately i gotta deal with this myself nobody can help me so whats the use

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 16:35:48 GMT

(feeling so alone the past few days i wish you wouldnt feel used to being without me)

Hearts Aching.

Thoughts Bursting.

Emotions Overwhelm.

Starting to feel, like i'm human, just like everyone else.

Only the strongest will survive.

Am i strong enough..

its you, and only you.
who can make me and break me

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 06:49:36 GMT

i miss...

sitting on my roof top with the sun shining, i dont know what my mind is thinking about right now.
i'm starting to feel like, i'm not as super as you thought i was anymore. i'm human

Is there something wrong right now?

Finally promos have ended, one more year till A's? look forward to chinese and PW first before i start thinking too far ahead i really wonder what my results'll turn out to be.

This morning, i was glad to receive your reply after so many days dont think you know this new blog but i hope you do.
Sun's shining but things arent looking as bright

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 23:53:33 GMT

This morning i woke up with a tummy :(

just one more week to go!!

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 15:21:46 GMT

i like ending the day with hearing your voice on the other line

our friday nights

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 16:01:08 GMT

i had my cyst sucked out finally, pictures but they're not quite clear
its a clear gel! think like 0.5ml came out it looks like pretty much but my wrist is finally flat

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 16:25:05 GMT

realised that there's still about a month before promo's end, god how am i going to survive going on like this.

i need you more than how i'll be able to tell you

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 14:41:44 GMT

the term started off with getting one demerit point for being late, which i wasnt.
things are looking glum already

untitled

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 14:09:05 GMT

unspoken words of emotion lay here

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 17:01:04 GMT

ineedahug

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 14:23:09 GMT

its back to school finally the last week of the term. 3rd term's been very horrible to be the 4th's only gonna get worse with promo's coming.
sometimes i feel like we've drifted, we are not what we used to be.

maybe i should throw my phone aside and focus on whats at hand for the moment

Give me time to prove
Prove I want the rest of yours
Call this a prelude to a lifetime of you
It's not that I hang on every word
I hang myself on what you repeat
It's not that I keep hanging on
I'm never letting go

happy 16th and 2days!